one day the sun rose twice in the east

a little east of Radium Springs

east of the town of Truth or Consequences

regular guy

worked at White Sands

Missile Range

twenty one years

died of cancer

flew too high

read it in the mourning paper


Navajo ghosts haunt Alamogordo

birthplace of nightmares

Jornado del Muerto

a very hot spot

ground zero

Trinity site

the Holy Spirit in a tongue of flame

turned sand to glass


the darkest hour

5:29:45 a.m.

mine eyes have seen the glory

of the blinding bright white light

then spoke the thunder


destroyer of worlds


all that before breakfast


have a nice day



Click pic above?

Long exposure shot of Trinity Test


Trinity Mushroom Cloud





Oppenheimer later recalled that, while witnessing the explosion, he thought of a verse from the Bhagavad Gita (XI,12):

 "If the radiance of a thousand suns were to burst at once into the sky, that  would be like the splendor of the mighty one ..."

Years later he would explain that another verse had also entered his head at that time: namely, the famous verse: 

"I am become Death, the destroyer of worlds."


In 1965, he was persuaded to quote again for a television broadcast:

We knew the world would not be the same. A few people laughed, a few people cried. Most people were silent. I remembered the line from the Hindu scripture, the Bhagavad Gita; Vishnu is trying to persuade the Prince that he should do his duty and, to impress him, takes on his multi-armed form and says, 'Now I am become Death, the destroyer of worlds.' I suppose we all thought that, one way or another.




One of the chief perpetrators, the brains behind.....



(Oppenheimer's Los Alamos ID)



Subsequently acquired haunted look

of, dare I say, a devil


It has been claimed that Oppenheimer named the Atomic Test "Trinity" in strange homage to the Metaphysical Poet, John Donne's Holy Sonnet XIV. Blame it on the verbal violence of the Dean of Saint Paul's Cathedral, if you like, I know I would:

"Batter my heart, three-person'd God,
…. o'erthrow me, and bend
Your force to break, blow, burn, and make me new."





Where the crime against humanity took place:




Looks harmless enough....


Euphemistically called The Gadget.

It's just a gadget. Men love their gadgets. It's perfectly normal.


                                        Became this.....

The Trinity explosion, 16 ms after detonation. Highest point in this image is about 200 metres (660 ft) high.








The desert sand, largely made of silica, melted and became a mildly radioactive light green glass, which was named trinitite.... At the time of detonation, the surrounding mountains were illuminated "brighter than daytime" for one to two seconds, and the heat was reported as "being as hot as an oven" at the base camp. The observed colors of the illumination changed from purple to green and eventually to white. The roar of the shock wave took 40 seconds to reach the observers. It was felt over 100 miles (160 km) away, and the mushroom cloud reached 7.5 miles (12.1 km) in height.



Ralph Carlisle Smith, watching from Compania Hill, wrote:

I was staring straight ahead with my open left eye covered by a welder's glass and my right eye remaining open and uncovered. Suddenly, my right eye was blinded by a light which appeared instantaneously all about without any build up of intensity. My left eye could see the ball of fire start up like a tremendous bubble or knob-like mushroom. I dropped the glass from my left eye almost immediately and watched the light climb upward. The light intensity fell rapidly, hence did not blind my left eye but it was still amazingly bright. It turned yellow, then red, and then beautiful purple. At first it had a translucent character, but shortly turned to a tinted or colored white smoke appearance. The ball of fire seemed to rise in something of toadstool effect. Later the column proceeded as a cylinder of white smoke; it seemed to move ponderously. A hole was punched through the clouds, but two fog rings appeared well above the white smoke column. There was a spontaneous cheer from the observers."

In his official report on the test, Farrell (who initially exclaimed, "The long-hairs have let it get away from them!" wrote:

The lighting effects beggared description. The whole country was lighted by a searing light with the intensity many times that of the midday sun. It was golden, purple, violet, gray, and blue. It lighted every peak, crevasse and ridge of the nearby mountain range with a clarity and beauty that cannot be described but must be seen to be imagined ...

William L. Laurence wrote press releases with the help of the Manhattan Project's public relations staff. He later recalled that

A loud cry filled the air. The little groups that hitherto had stood rooted to the earth like desert plants broke into dance, the rhythm of primitive man dancing at one of his fire festivals at the coming of Spring.

After the initial euphoria of witnessing the explosion had passed, Bainbridge told Oppenheimer, "Now we are all sons of bitches." Rabi noticed Oppenheimer's reaction: "I'll never forget his walk;" Rabi recalled, "I'll never forget the way he stepped out of the car ... his walk was like High Noon... this kind of strut. He had done it."





(Emphasis mine. Bowie's phrase 'The Voyeur of Utter Destruction as Beauty' springs to mind! I mean it must have been pretty spectacular. Spectacularly pretty. Those colours. Yellow, red, purple etc. Pretty without pity.)


The day in question, certainly not an anniversary to celebrate: 16 July 1945. Lamentation called for?


Wrote above verse in 1978, after a trip to New Mexico. It's about the "successful" testing of the first implosion-type plutonium device, of same design as the abominable bomb detonated over Nagasaki, Japan. While there, I read an obituary in the local paper about an ex-employee at White Sands Missile Range. Albuquerque was the nearest I got to the Trinity Test Site, which is listed as one of its local attractions.

It's a short extract from Gone West




Commentary, interjections, passing reflections etc brought to you by the egregious (in archaic sense?)

also responsible for extensive & intensive research



"When President Poosevelt got wind of this, fearing America might be caught with its pants down, he instituted a top-level research project in the remote New Mexican desert where further experiments could be carried out without social embarrassment. There, a team of smart-arsed perverts under the guidance of Robert call-me-jobby Oppenheimer, another scientist stuck at the anal stage, constructed the first Bums in strictest secrecy (to avoid a scandal.) Dropped on an unsuspecting Japan in 1945, the 'Little Boy' & 'Fat Man' Bums were an immediate hit, in fact they completely flattened two cities. Anatomic Warfare had arrived with a bang. The victims whimpered."    

More where that came from in The BUM


Other relevant links, which might enhance 

your experience & understanding below



Holy Holocaust

End of the World Show Still

Song of the Radio-isotopes

Flew  too high

War & Peace






A - Z






The Doomsday Clock is a symbol that represents the likelihood of a man-made global catastrophe. Maintained since 1947 by the members of the Bulletin of the Atomic Scientists, the Clock is a metaphor for threats to humanity from unchecked scientific and technical advances. The Clock represents the hypothetical global catastrophe as "midnight" and the Bulletin's opinion on how close the world is to a global catastrophe as a number of "minutes" to midnight, assessed in January of each year. The main factors influencing the Clock are nuclear risk and global warming (climate change.)The Bulletin's Science and Security Board also monitors new developments in the life sciences and technology that could inflict irrevocable harm to humanity.

The Clock's original setting in 1947 was seven minutes to midnight. It has been set backward and forward 24 times since then, the largest-ever number of minutes to midnight being 17 (in 1991), and the smallest 100 seconds (1 minute and 40 seconds) in January 2
The clock was set at two minutes to midnight in January 2018, and left unchanged in 2019 due to the twin threats of nuclear weapons and the increasing effects of global warming. On 23 January 2020, it was moved forward to 100 seconds (1 minute 40 seconds) befo
re midnight, based on the increased threats to global stability posed by "a nuclear blunder", exacerbated by the rate of climate change.



They know not what they do

Click pic?


Maybe there's another way?


"Considering the discovery of LSD in the context of other significant discoveries of our time in the medicinal and technical field, one might arrive at the notion that LSD did not come into the world accidentally, but was rather evoked in the scope of some higher plan…...  At about the same time nuclear energy became technically usable and the atomic bomb was developed. In comparison to traditional energy sources and weapons, a new dimension of menace and destruction became accessible…. One could make the assumption that this coincidence might not be accidental, but rather was brought on the scene by the "Spirit of the Age." From this perspective the discovery of LSD could hardly be an accident…. One might reflect on a further idea, that LSD might have been predestined by some higher power to arise precisely at the time when the predominance of materialism with all its consequences over the past 100 years was being understood. LSD as an enlightening psycho-pharmakon along the path to a new, spiritual age!

LSD: Completely Personal

Dr.  Albert Hofmann.

Speech delivered to the 1996 Worlds of Consciousness Conference
in Heidelberg, Germany, translated from the original German (LSD Ganz Persönlich) by J. Ott


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